I Am Finished Waiting

I kept telling myself that it

Always repeats itself
Mornings like this

Feeling like
I am
Never going to find the only thing
I ever wanted
So simple that it is
Heaven seems to hate me
Even disowns me
Drowning like a stone in a lake

Waiting to resurface
All the time thinking it will take too long
I am valuable? Am I not?
There might be other girls
I am different
Nobody should be
Going against all odds in love