No Safety

As tempting as it is
To runaway
As I spent so many summers
Of my youth
Trying to get away
From what was attached to me
As though it was an internal part of me
Running away from my history
Park benches
Refuges of the night
Anywhere unseen
I could have been
Hidden
I could have been tucked away
From the elements of any given day
Even alone
I cannot seem to close my eyes
Or keep them close
Once they have closed
Momentarily I lapse
Into a false feeling of safety
There is no safety
When I couldn't even have been safe
From me