Cultivation

Secretly

I long to be

Something

Of a beauty

Something

Of popularity

Something

Of a personality

But what would

Any of that

Really do for me?

Distractions

Dillusions

None of that matters

I just want to know

How to cultivate

My spirituality

Culturally

Socially

Appropriately

I don't want to

Be afraid

Of accepting myself

But how can I?

Even have respect

For myself?

When I can't seem

To control myself

To take responsibility

For my mistakes

Thus making

The same mistakes

Time and Time

Again