Pushing It Down

My mind wanders

Lack of sleep

I cannot keep

My mind off

Recent events

It's almost as if

I asked for it

To happen

It would not have

Happened

If I did not let

It happen

I have to learn

How to value myself

As a woman should

Only if I could

Maybe I would

If I felt like I

Was worth it

I won't cry

My eyes are dry

That night slipped by

Over too quick

I was sick

This morning

In front of

A building

I don't even live in

I couldn't keep it all in

I had to sit

For a while

Think about things

About where my life

Is going

Soon it will be snowing

How we can do these things

Without knowing

How we can do these things

Without showing

An ounce of regret

Because it's a secret

Pushing it down

Denial

As deep in the heart

As it will get

But I haven't forgotten yet