Break

Bring me up to speed
Remind me of those times
Earlier in my life
And you should
Know that I never forgot

My pain over
Years wasted

Hoping to heal as I may
Ever plotting my leaps forward
And arranging
Retrials registering recalls
To timed tasks

I could be better

Depending on my dropping doubt
And courageously
Reaching highier than
Ever before

Yet
Owning
Understandings of myself

Tougher on the inside
Outwards, too