Damned If You Do

Maybe I'm caught
Between a rock
And a hard place
Too much effort
In finding my own space
Mascara smeared down my face
As though everything I've feared
Has me in its embrace
Eyes swollen
From beating myself up
Making myself cry
Never asking myself why
Never waking myself up
Breaking myself up
Instead of building myself up
To be stronger than ever before
I've always wanted
To persue
What I could never have
To rescue
What I could never save