Love of a Coward

It was the stimulation
I sought
It was a thought
Turned into reality
I could have hoped for eternity
It was the feeling of feeling alive
When was the last time
I felt alive?
When was the last time
I felt like a woman?
It is hard for me to say
When the last time was
That I felt that way
Because it was so fleeting
My heart was beating
For the wrong reasons
I was hoping that a coward
Would love me
He is a coward
For refusing to love me
How can you say
That bravery is dying for a country
When you can't even give your heart
To someone who'd never break your heart?