How Many Things?

How I tried to send
Obvious messages
Without you cluing in

Maybe you think
A tomboy like me might
Not have desire for
You

Think again
How many times I tried
Interest just
Not there
Grand
Scale

Clouded judgement
Only I could be a fool for
Ultimately
Looking in the wrong direction
Denying you happiness if you look elsewhere

Invested as you are in someone else

Holding back so much
Always hurt
Voids equally
Expanding

Storing it
Always
Inside
Depending on the strength I've got