Preventive Measure

I used to pretend so much
That part of me
Still wants to believe
What I made up
So long ago

It was a preventive measure
A way to protect myself
From any hurt to my heart
It worked for the longest time

Why didn't I keep this close to my heart?
Was it because I knew that it wasn't real?
Did I just want to feel?
Did I want to know that I was not made of steel?

Could have been that I simply
Could not stand to lie to myself
Any longer
It made me weak
Not stronger