From Afar

I've watched you from afar
And each time I get close enough
The words that come out of my mouth
Never match what is on my mind

I wanted to say things differently
I didn't want for you to catch me
Talking to myself
As you have countless times
At first it is amusing
If not embarrassing

There are times I wish I could read your mind
I'd love to know where I stand
If there is anywhere for me to stand
Even if it is standing on a crowded bus
Everyone else has a seat
And you're left standing
The only thing that matters is having caught the bus
That you're getting to where you want to go

Knowing that you are dry on the inside
While outside it starts raining

You are the reason I want to be there
Only you