If It Were At All Possible

I used to think about it
For forever and a day

It became way
Too much for me to bear

Way too much for
Even a fraction of a thought
Reflections
Even fractions of reflections

All at once I knew
The time had come

And I had to give it up
Longing for love
Love itself

Probability
Outweighed
Sensibilities
Sensitivities
It all
Became about
Living life
Even if it killed me