Don't Know How To Feel

Don't know how to feel. Even
On the good days. This is
Never far from my mind and I wish
'
Things were so different. I wish I didn't 

Know. I wish I had
Not reacted the way I did, and now, 
One day from the next... I don't know
When or if I will ever feel okay again. 

Home isn't home anymore. 
Open 
Wounds bleed and bleed until I can't feel anything anymore. 

This isn't how I'd hoped my life would be.
One can hope, but until they

Face everything.... 
Everything that hurts, 
Everything that
Left me so broken.