This Girl I Am

I must be crazy

To think

That I'm good enough

To believe a man

Who said I was pretty

I am not

And I know I am not

Who could ever love

This girl I am?

When I want to believe

In love

But it gets harder to believe

In something

I can never achieve

I don't want to say it

For the sake of saying it

I don't want to hear it

For the sake of hearing it

It won't make me feel

Better about myself

Knowing that you don't mean it

You may as well lie to me

And tell me that you'll love me

For the rest of my life

And lie to me

And tell me that you intend

To make me your wife

I'm getting used to this game

Of pretending

That you feel the same

Of pretending

That you want the same

Of thinking

That I'm the one to blame

I don't want to play this game

Why can't you just tell me the truth?

You think I can't handle the truth?

You think I'm not strong enough to handle the truth?

Or maybe you're just too scared

To realize the truth

I know you're scared

You don't think I am?

I am scared

Because I know I am

Not the girl

You think you love

There's always been another girl

You've been thinking of

Maybe I am foolish

For trying so hard

For wanting you so badly

So badly that I could fall in love

If only you could fall in love

I wanted to believe you when you told me

The first time that you told me

That all you wanted

Was to hold me

Dreams only last

As long as you make them last

And this will be my last

Because I know it's not going to last

You have changed

So fast

The next time will be the last

That you leave me

Without telling me

That you love me

Even if you have to lie to me