Never Completely

I'm a bit angry
For believing words
I knew were not true
Angry at myself
Because I knew
This; coming from you
After everything I had to
Go through
Without anyone
Insecurity has made me
Have to live my life internally
Never being completely
Able to
Say what is on my mind
Because feelings aren't supposed to
Get in the way
Because they make me say
What I'm worried about
Am I weird to worry?
When I don't know how to
Not worry?