My Father

Sometimes I wish I could talk to you
Just to tell you
All the shit I had to go through
Because you weren't there for me
Even when you were alive
I remember the first time I saw you
When I was introduced to you
As my father
I remember being confused
Not knowing what to ask you
When you told me I could ask you
Anything
I wanted to know
Who gave me my name
If only I could have thought of
Something
Better to ask you
Back then
But I didn't know
That one day you would go
Beyond the reach of reason
Nobody could have talked you out of it
Even if I was standing right there
I think you would have done it anyway
Even if you could have saved me
If I could have saved you
From going through
With it