Figuring It All Out

Falling again, 
It wasn't how I thought it was
Going to be. I didn't
Understand some things and I had to keep
Reapeating my mitakes until
I could see that I was getting it wrong. 
Now I know. But it would have been
Good to know sooner.  

I have to
Think that it 

All happened for a reason. I can say that I
Loved and that I still can feel that. I can say that
Love's not going to be the thing that saves me.  

Or that being alone is the thing that will kill me. That
Until I get it figured out,
Time's all that I have.