Enough Is Enough

Been a while, but I refuse to keep feeling
Unwanted, 
Inadequate. I wasn't
Lying. Even though I 
Did say some things 
I didn't mean. In the heat of it. I don't
Need anyone watching me bleed and I'm not
Going to keep pouring 

My heart out
Year after year and
Still not get chosen. While
Everyone else gets to 
Love and be
Fought for while I hang 

Back 
And try to be 
Content
Knowing that it had to end.  

Unpacking these things
Puts me in a place where I can 

Analyze my actions and
Gage my reactions. 
Admittingly,
I wasn't as mature as I could have been. I 
Need to learn when enough is enough