All The Things You Don't Know About Me

All this time we get to spend together. Just as I had wanted to... For a
Long time... The
Longest time. So long 

That I wanted to give up and try to
Have a life without you, 
Except that I couldn't.

The night I fell asleep next to you with emotion
Heavy in my throat. 
I couldn't let myself get too 
Near you. I don't want to
Get too used to
Sleeping next to you. To waking up next to

You. Because that had
Only been a dream to me and would you
Understand? Would you feel the same about you if I

Delved into everything that's been in my heart? If I came to you
Open-heartedly? Would you have an open mind?
Not that I don't want to sleep next to you... It's
'
That I can't trust myself and you

Know... I know you know, but there is
Nothing I can do about it. I can't even 
Open up to you, in the
Way I wish I could. I want to tell you

All of it, 
But I don't want it to affect the
Only way I can have you in my life. I want this to be
Unaffected by 
The way I feel and however you feel about

Me. Yet, I still wish I could shout it from
Every roof top. That we could hold each other in our sleep.