Trying Not to Say I Love You

I spent so much time
Trying not to just blurt it out
Like I did every time before
Because this time
It means more
Than words
Written and read
I wish I knew what's in your head
Or maybe I just want it to mean more
To be like never before
And I'm afraid that it means more
To me than it does to you
And that is why
I always try
Not to
Say I love you
Because I know
That you can't love me, too